love unknown

 This is what i listened to while reflecting ^^
http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=127481259

being back in California this summer, not knowing what exactly i would end up doing.. exposed me to not being attached to any outcome. its funny, because last summer i totally knew what i was going to do, go the school in hawaii... summer before new i was going to finish shasta, live in the dorms.. and then prepare to transfer.

I think that when the people around you see how you make goals and set out to achieve them, an expectation is created. and that affects some decisions that your confronted with. I'm so greateful to have seen this and to have gone through exploring myself to see the path the is ahead of me. taking in what others had to say, but knowing that only i know my situation fully. what makes it really hard is the idea that no matter what road you take, its not wrong, there will be animals along the way that you will meet and then in turn realize what makes you, connected with the rest of the big turtle we live on. its just a matter of what you happen to tun into.. i'd like to think that i don't really have control over that. i can be myself and things will happen no matter where i am, what my decision is. i just have to trust it.